Mama

Salam 1 April 

Harini terdengar conversation officemate dengan mak dia.

Tiba-tiba aku pun jadi sebak tapi tahan je la air mata.

Tiba-tiba macam terdetik, macam mana la kalau arwah masih hidup?

Macam mana cara kami bersembang?

Satu perasaan yang sukar nk explain. Betapa kadang-kadang aku rindu nak gelak-gelak dengan mama.

Nak menyakat dia. 
Nak peluk-peluk dengan dia. 
Nak request makan sedap-sedap. 
Nak clingy dengan dia waktu sakit. 
Nak sembang panjang dengan dia. 

Mama meninggal masa tu aku form one. Muda sangat.

Teringin aku nak tengok wajah dia bila aku dapat result spm.
Tengok aku dapat ijazah. Naik pentas masa grad. 
Paling aku teringin menjadi orang paling dekat waktu aku nikah, 
Tapi itulah salah satu nikmat dunia, kasih sayang dan doa ibu tu dah takde.
Bermula saat arwah mama kembali ke Rahmatullah.

Mulai detik tu, aku jadi tak reti.
Mak mentua aku baik tapi aku tak reti nak lebih-lebih.
Sebab aku hormat dia sebagai mentua.
kadang aku jadi tak reti nak layan.
Dekat 13 tahun aku hidup takde mak. 
Yang besarkan aku pun abg dan kak ipar aku.

Orang tak faham apa yg kita cuba kata.
Tak akan faham sampai dia sendiri yang kehilangan ibubapa.
Luar nampak aku happy enjoy life.
Sedangkan dalam hati ni, bila terdetik pasal mama
Mesti aku kalah. Air mata mula berlinang.
Tak mudah untuk kita belajar hidup berdikari.


Semoga aku terus kuat dan cekal hati.
Aku percaya mama pun tak suka tengok aku lemah.
Sebab mama juga seorang yang kuat semangat.
Walaupun dia ada sakit jantung, 20 tahun lamanya dia fight.
Aku tetap bersyukur Allah bagi masa hidup 12 tahun dengan mama.
Kenal mama. Merasai kasih sayang nya walaupun sekejap.
Mungkin akan ada lagi yang lebih sedih daripada aku.

Al Fatihah untuk mama. 

Yang sentiasa ada dalam doaku sentiasa..

Meet my husband :)

Salam my little blospot!

I am sure no one will read this. 

But i want to post here. mana tahu one fine day, my children will able to read his/her mom's babling :P

30.11.2018

I am officially as a wife to Encik Mohd Safuan after 10 months 'ikat tepi' or orang panggil 'engaged atau bertunang'. The majlis held at Mali Home , Assam Kumbang which located at the centre of Taiping. Well , the majlis went smoothly. Thanks to my kak ipaq, Kak Eja. She is the one who struggling managed everything. Daripada catering, bridal, hantaran and so on. Same goes to my beloved brother, Abg Eman :)

Meet my husband :)

He came from Sg Petani. 7 years older than me. Chubby cheeks but he denied. He told that he was a handsome guy. Kacak katanya *muntah pelangi :P*

Dear husbaby,

Eventually, you are able to tied me as your wife legally.
Able to sekali lafaz nikah on our solemnization.

We made a plan to married. Alhamdulillah, Allah has made it comes true.

I am not promise you to be a good wife. But i am promise to learn be your good wife as much as i can . We still undergo learning process to know each other, what your likes or dislikes, and and and i am trying to adapt to in love with your hardcore hobbies such as badminton and football. It is not easy for me who is very dislike to sports activities. Please guide me and support me ya!

I knew you are strong. We still new in this relationship. However we go through this together. I will stand at your behind. Insya Allah. 

I always pray to Allah for His blessings, guide us to the right path and .... its okey i will finish the duas in my prayer. *cakap sikit-sikit udah le, nanti org tau :P*

Thanks again B . I love you to the moon and back *mini love*


Sincerely your wife,